What is the worste thing that could happen to you?

We all at one night or the other have a nightmare. Apparently nightmares are made of the things that we fear in our days. We all have fears , some bigger than others. what are your biggest fears? I had to ask myself this question and the answer I got was something that I think a lot  people would find unusual and may even label me cold for for feeling that way.

I know a lot of peoples fears are about losing the special people in their lives but its not my biggest fear. I love my relatives very much , they are my family because technically speaking , I don't have a family. I also love all my friends but  I find that  losing the people that I love is not the biggest fear that I have. Don't get me wrong I would be devastated and maybe I wouldn't be functional for a while, well depending on who died , but I just mean that I know that I would still survive and my life would still move on.

My fears have a lot to do with me as an individual  ,  not becoming a success , being diagnosed with a chronic disease , things about me that are irreversible. I am afraid of just wasting my life, looking back and realising that I have not made a difference , that  I have not achieved everything that  I have wanted to  and there is nothing to show for my time on earth, besides children of course- that is one my nightmares and my fear. My biggest fear has to be dying and going  to hell, now that's my fear !

My nightmares have  a lot to do with demons , fire and dark places , oh! and all the evil people I have encountered in my life , both dead and alive....